In 2016, I was with my friends. We were enjoying donuts and night talks. Around 5 am, my friend bid bye, heading towards airport in cab. Walking down the street towards my room, I see a silent dog jumping on me, biting badly on my calf. Not knowing if that’s what is exactly called a dog bite, I asked a passing by uncle if the dog has biten me. He said yes and walked off. I called my cousin, who is a doctor, informing him it all. He said to wash it with flowing water and immediately visit the doctor. With injections loaded up, I ended up sleeping next 2 days. I was born again as dog-o-phobic person. The fear was to such extent that I would choose next street to reach my destination than choose the one with any dog standing in it. I would turn back again n again just to confirm if dog I just passed by, isn’t coming behind me to attack me.
Life appeared the best without dogs on the planet.
Nature has its own principle of always completing the circle. It puts me in a situation wherein my visits to my home town turned weekly. And I would stay at my aunt’s home. The same year, they adopted Rottweiler as their pet, naming it Oreo.
Oreo was kind of a mountain in my life. Staying with Oreo under same roof sounded more tough than the 100s of business matters at my hand in my home town. Oreo knew I am scared of it, so initially as I was a stranger, it tried to scare me too. It loved showing it’s power and activeness and jumping skills, when I was around. My heart would beat fastest and mind would stop all the shit and just stay fucking alert n present to it’s moves.
Ofcourse, Oreo’s overpowering nature made me realise again n again that I have given up all my powers to my fear and past experience to such an extent that it’s making me feel fucked up just with it’s presence. However, Gathering all the strength, I stood behind Oreo, while it was chained. My posture appeared as though I was about to lit an laxmi bomb (firecracker) and run bumping and falling. And from behind, I took a pic of both of us, feeling immensely proud of standing behind a dog. Again That same evening, Oreo stood at gate, & I was on the road, waiting for it to be chained.
Now, I envisioned a pic with Oreo Beside me. Knowing Psych-K, I decided to transform my past experience of dog bite. I did a lot of perception change & Ofcourse for the frequent visits I was having, I found myself ok with both of us being in different rooms under same roof. Yes, that was a big deal too. When I would see it beside or around me, I would just close my eyes tight, hearing my own heart beat. Each time my desire of clicking a pic with Oreo Beside grew stronger. I started working with my fear and just did perception change of the immense stress I felt. And soonest, that day came, where both of us sat beside each other with distance of one feet between us. Oreo was instructed to sit in a posture by its guardian. And the loyal kiddo obeyed his master, making It a cake walk for me to click the pic and fulfill my desire. God, I posted that pic on insta and whatsapp, for it was a big deal for me.
Ofcourse, human desires don’t stop there. Now I wanted to actually get off the dog-o-phobia and enjoy Oreos presence around me. I started to imagine touching Oreo. Just touching it. Not even a pat on its back. I created a new reality I wished to experience. I balanced all my perceptions as & when I discovered them, so that I could meet this reality in near future soon.
By Now, Oreo realised I am not okay with it touching me. When anyone would come his home, he would jump on them, expressing it’s love, but when I came, he would come and stand beside me. Giving me space to feel okay with it around me. WoW ! What a change in the relationship.
That one act of Oreo touched my heart. And I closed my eyes, Imagining me accepting Oreo and being ok cuddling it. That smile on my face on seeing this picture was priceless.
I started speaking with oreo, asking it to stand still. I started touching it. And oreo would patiently stand, controlling all it’s playfulness, allowing me to feel comfortable touching It. Not one or two incidents, there were 4-5 incidents where Oreo made sure of letting me know through its actions that it’s giving me my space to help our relation build. That little dog taught me the biggest lesson of “how to build trust”.
I now started attempting to touch and keep my hand on oreo. Trust me, I transformed all the fearful emotions that were popping up during this experience. If oreo was on other side of window or railing of the gate, I would cuddle it with faith. The smart kiddo began to stand on other side of railing, so that it could receive the cuddle. & ofcourse, once again, it won my heart. It’s unconditional love was sensed by my entire being.
Now I started holding intents of cuddling oreo sitting beside it. Voila, when I would sit on sofa, oreo would come and sit in front of me, giving me side looks, as indication that it’s time to cuddle it’s back. I began to pat it & cuddle it. And oreo would remain playful at it’s best. It’s efforts were being recognised by me and it celebrated the wins jumping and running in it’s play area.
I started to feel pure love for Oreo. It’s thought started bringing smile on my face. In my imagination, I started holding oreo in my arms and just hugging it for longest, with feeling of oneness spreading out through us. Ofcourse, this was just In my eyes picture. I once again balanced this new reality for I just was growing in love with the little one.
My next visit was with oreo standing beside me, walking with me along, both of us sitting in same room, infact beside each other without the guardians presence. Now this time, when I cuddled oreo, at 10 am in the morning, in less than 3 mins, it fell asleep. And my heart was filled with peace watching it sleep so calmly. Whole day, I kept smiling thinking of this episode. In the evening, when I reached my aunts home again, oreo was busy in it’s games. Post dinner, around 9pm it sat beside me, and I cuddled its back, it’s ears and it’s forehead for around 7 mins, and just stopped, oreo turned the front body towards me, asking me to cuddle there too. I just kept my hand there, and oreo was all asleep. Again I felt ocean of peace within. That sheer bliss. That pure acceptance of love. Which Oreo taught me through his behaviour has unlocked love from some frozen space of my heart and hence life.
I am grateful to Oreo for being my safe space, allowing me heal my past wound and Embrace it’s unconditional love with arms wide open.
How’s it being now ?
Wellllll…….With Almost after 3 months passing by, it’s june 2024 & here we go…..
